I can’t wait
until the day
that I am able
to physically hear
your heartbeat again
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Category: remember
You say jump.. I say how high?
As we somehow made it happen again, we all got together for another monthly family day!
Since it was taking place in Victoria, TX today, we thought of a few places the kids might like such the zoo, the park, Peter piper pizza, etc. and ultimately decided on going to Peter Piper Pizza first for a couple of hours and eat lunch there, and then head to the park.
First and foremost, the kids are all at the ages now where they can play a lot of the games, without our help, which ultimately makes them happier and more independent. They go through the typical roller coaster of emotions (love, hate, laughter,cry) every time they all hang out, but those moments when they are getting along (more often than not, thank goodness) are oh so sweet!!
We made a quick stop to Target, to look for a princess watch for Emma, and for a coffee stop! Thank goodness!
After that, we made our way to the park, or so we thought. Well on our way, we passed this amazing looking trampoline place (HangTime Trampoline), and knew we had to take the kids there. We make a quick U-turn and decided to check it out and see what it’s all about! It was a bit pricy for only 1 hour, but we had so-much-fun!!
After that hour, we decided to all spend the rest of the time at the park, playing, and just enjoying this beautiful day!
The kids had some meltdowns since they had to skip taking their naps, but overall, pulled through and made it such a great day!! I am so happy to keep honoring Rochelle, the best way we know how, and that is by being together as a family♡.
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1 YEAR, 12 MONTHS, 365 DAYS, 8760 HOURS, 525,600 MINUTES, 31,536,000 SECONDS
That’s how much time has passed since Rochelle has passed away. It’s crazy to think that I have made it to this point in my life, and in my grieving process.
In the beginning of this journey, I went through some pretty tough times accepting what all truly happened. I didn’t know how I could have grasped everything that occurred, in such a short amount of time. It wasn’t until I sat down and typed everything up with what truly happened in the moments after her death, that I had to stop and think about how I was feeling.
I had a lot of anger that just harbored within, and at that time I got rid of some much stuff (I still regret giving everything away, some stuff I definitely could have kept)! I didn’t want to see anything that had Rochelle’s name written on it, and I wanted it gone. I was hurt, and in a lot of pain. It took me time to actually go through all of her items, and keep only the special ones. I could feel myself falling deeper into a hole around the three month mark. I had very poor self esteem, and I just didn’t think anything good/positive. I remember having to just pull it together for Brielle’s 2nd birthday party. I tried so hard to be “in the moment” but I just couldn’t. I remember the guilt kicking in, around month seven, and I was hurting so much.
It wasn’t until month eight, that I could see myself turning my negative outlook around, and appreciating everything that God had given us. I loved that I wrote my farewell letter to her through poetry. She was my inspiration to explore deeper and profound feelings for my love of writing.
Somehow, I got the sign I longed for, and that was for God to give me hope again. To listen to myself and my heart, and do that I truly love to do. I started peak an interest in photography, and I loved celebrating her first birthday, and being able to capture it. I loved knowing that she was celebrating with Jesus, among all people, and her brother Lamar. The only word that I could find to describe that feeling is pure magic.
I believe I am a place right now, that I would have never thought possible, just one short year ago. I have many downs, but a lot of ups as well, and with God, family, and friends, we have somehow made it to this day, a year later, January 7th, 2016. Please continue to pray for healing and growth with our family, and that we continue to share Rochelle’s journey, for a lifetime to come.
Here are some of my favorite pictures, ever.
perfection–even when she had jaundice! 🙂
Just minutes after meeting her for the first time, I will never forget the way her fingers curled and grasped mine so tight
Sleeping peacefully.. at least for a little bit when she was not being held.
R.I.P our sweet sweet Angel Rochelle Elaine Johnson
November 06, 2014- January 07, 2015.
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My blogging year in Review!
The WordPress.com stats helper monkeys prepared a 2015 annual report for this blog.
Here’s an excerpt:
A New York City subway train holds 1,200 people. This blog was viewed about 7,300 times in 2015. If it were a NYC subway train, it would take about 6 trips to carry that many people.
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