Why?

Tonight as I was putting Brielle to sleep, I was telling her how amazing, beautiful, and such a blessing she was to me.  I wanted her to just know that I am so happy that God allows us each and every day to raise her and be her parents.  I think we get so caught up in our every day lives, that we just forget to tell our kids how precious of a gift and amazing they are.

After I was telling Brielle how amazing she was, she looked and me and said “I’m sad”, (and then I knew right then and there that her mind was racing and her heart was digging so deep) so of course I asked why and she stated to me “I am sad because God took my brother and my sister and I want to know why.”  This just stumped me, because I am amazed at the fact that my three year old comprehends so much at her age.  I told her that we are all God’s children to begin with, so he doesn’t take any of them from us, he just simply has a differently calling for their life.  I went on to say that they are very much alive and happy and probably running around as we speak. She then states “I just want to know why God allowed my brother and sister to be born sick,” well..that was a tough one because it just hit me so deep.  That is exactly what I used to ask Him all the time when I was told that I was carrying a terminally ill baby.  But the best response that I could come up with is that God makes every single one of us differently and some of us are more unique than others and are born sick, but that it doesn’t make any of us less special, just more unique. She was satisfied at this point and just said “I just want to give you a really tight hug right now” and so she did, and proceeded to go to sleep.

Let me tell you, I learn SO much from her, and I know I don’t always have the best answers to her questions,and I will definitely let her know if it is something that I need some time to think about and get back to her. Knowing at just three years old that she can really understand where her siblings are, and grasp the fact that they are both different than her is so so precious and special in our hearts and our family.  Shane and I definitely know that we are doing something right raising her.

I just felt like this needed to be shared, and I wanted it documented so that I would never forget this precious little conversation, with my precious little girl.

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