Feeling defeated..

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So as promised, I decided to not tell you all when the next Trial for my boys was going to take place.. because, well truthfully, I didn’t want to get my hopes up…or anyone else’s for that matter.

Well, the trial was supposed to be today.  The trial that would determine whether the parents of the three boys that we have would either relinquish their parental rights, or if the court was going to go forward with the termination of their rights.  It was the third time since they have been with us (for almost 3 months) that this trial has been moved back, and we just figured that they couldn’t possibly move the trial date again.. or could they?

Well.. Sunday afternoon I get a text from the legal worker (mind you.. I just had a very long and exhausting day at work and I was not in the mood to deal with bad news) stating that the Judge would not be in appearance for the trial on Monday (today) and that he wants to move the date back again to another day, but that the new date has not yet been determined.

I was mad/frustrated/angry/upset..well, you get the point.  I just didn’t know how much more “bad news” I could handle when it came to my foster children.  I know that these things probably happen all the time.. and while I understand that, I can’t help but feel defeated.

I just feel like us foster parents (who are currently raising other peoples children) are having to go leaps and bounds out of our way to accommodate everything for these children. And while they are so worth it, I just feel like we are underappreciated.

Just looking in these precious children’s eyes, knowing that they depend on us to be their everything, and do what’s best for them.. just breaks my heart.  Shane and I just want to be able to close these bad chapters in their lives, so they could move on.

I may feel defeated and in need of lots of extra prayers, but I will never give up the fight.  These children deserve to feel safe, loved, nurtured and secure just like everyone else, and that’s why we decided to do this in the first place.

The legal team is currently asking the Judge for a “special setting” which is where just our case will be presented in front of the Judge and a verdict would have to be determined on that day. I will most definitely keep you all updated on when that is to be set up.  Hopefully sooner than later.

I appreciate you all, from the bottom of my heart!

©2017 Sheridan Johnson @Journey with the Johnsons. All Rights Reserved.

 

6 thoughts on “Feeling defeated..

  1. ryannmadonna says:

    This seems so frustrating. As long as you keep those kid’s best interest in every decision you make, that’s the best you can do. You’re giving them the tools and the love they will need to become successful, happy adults. Keep on keeping on, even when it gets hard!!

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  2. Wilhite Adventures says:

    I just read through several of your posts and I’d just like to say that you’re an inspiring person. The system may be broken and it may not appreciate you, but there are many people out there, myself included, who fully comprehend the difference you are making. Stay strong and you’ll be in our prayers!

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  3. melissairee says:

    Prayers for you guys! As my great-grandmother used to say, you’re getting starts in your crowns! It took a year and a half of no parental contact at all before they finally got TPR completed. Starting the adoption paperwork trail next week!

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