I see you staring at them,
those bags under my eyes.
It may look like it was from not sleeping for one night.
Little do you know,
those bags tell a story.
Of a twenty-seven year old woman,
who has aged so much in the last five years.
A woman who has experienced so much loss,
that sleep is non-existent anymore.
A woman who prays that someday,
sleep will come back.
A woman that closes her eyes each night,
says her prayers and counts her blessings,
and if she happens to get into that deep REM sleep,
she is only to be woken up from a terrible nightmare.
The ones that she wishes upon no one.
A woman who wishes that one night,
she just might be able to see her babies again.
So many people have told her,
that angels can speak to you when you are asleep.
She just keeps waiting and hoping for that day to be true.
Just to get to see them one more time,
growing, laughing, and playing,
and knowing that they are right where they need to be.
Those bags under my eyes may never go away,
but know that I am okay with that.
Sleep will come back one day,
it may happen sooner, or it may happen later.
©2015 Sheridan Johnson @Journey with the Johnsons. All Rights Reserved.
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such depth of sadness lies in what’s not being said here…sigh…but it is beautifully written…blessings to you!
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Thank you so much! 🙂 Blessings being given back to you! 🙂
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You are welcome and thanks 🙂
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Your words leave me feeling your deep loss – as well crafted words should. Well written poem – I’m sorry for the pain you have gone through to give you the perspective to write so beautifully.
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Thank you so much and I truly do feel like poetry is allowing me express my feelings in ways I never thought existed.
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That was an emotional write. I understand the importance of getting a good night sleep and also the feeling of being deprived of it. God bless.
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Just one night of good rest can make a person feel like a million bucks! 🙂
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Very true 🙂
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So powerful! And your eyes look gorge.
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You’re wayyyy too sweet, thank you!
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I can imagine how it feels when sleep eludes one especially in times of loss and pain. But time changes everything. Time will bring back sound sleep again. 🙂
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I completely agree. Time will definitely make things easier.
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I felt your sadness reading this. I suppose that’s what poetry does, it lets us experience someone else’s emotions. Powerful, heartbreaking stuff!
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Thank you so much for understanding the words I was trying to get across throughout this poem. Poetry truly does do that!
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