Vulnerability is defined as the quality or state of being exposed to the possibility of being attacked or harmed, either physically or emotionally.
Over the past few months, I have personally gone through some of the hardest things I thought I would ever have to endure. Now, I am not completely ready to share it with the world (maybe some day I will) but I am ready to talk about some of the things that I have gotten me to the place where I am today.
The word vulnerability scares me to death, because being the introverted person that I am, it means that I will have to verbally and openly discuss things that I have gone through in my life in order to start healing from it all, and that alone petrifies me.
Vulnerability is something that many of us don’t talk about, because we are afraid of being judged by our decisions in life whether personally or professionally. But it’s also the tool that is needed when you are going through some hard things, and you just want to vent, cry, or just want someone to listen as you discuss how you are having to face some of your biggest fears.
I feel like once I was able to openly talk (or type) about some of the things that I have gone through with the people I trust the most, I was able to let go and watch God work in my life and grow me mentally, physically, and spiritually.
Want to know what being vulnerable also opened to my eyes to? That in life there are people that say that love you and would be there for you during your trials and tribulations, and are nowhere to be found. I literally could only count on only a handful of people the past few months to pray for me, to love me, or to help financially, emotionally, or physically (and for those of you that have been there and continue to be there, thank you). Sometimes the people you love the most, aren’t really who you think they are. I think that was the hardest thing to realize emotionally, because for so long I had felt proud of the organizations I was a part of, and felt proud of all the things the kids were involved in, and the direction my life and family were heading.
But I want you all to know that everyone has something they have gone through in their life, or are going to go through, that may seem like the most difficult thing they could ever face. I want you to reach out and send them an encouraging message, or call them and let them be open and vulnerable with you (without you placing any judgement), or just do a random act of kindness for them. And if you are struggling with something right now, I want you to read Romans 8:28 and know that you are LOVED right where you are at. Also, find someone to confide in and if you are too scared to take that step, write your vulnerability down in a journal. You can get through this, but you have to put in the work in order to do so.
Romans 8:28 King James Version (KJV)
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.
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